Love of a Different Color

Quote of the Day: 

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, 

while loving someone deeply gives you courage.

~Lao Tzu~

Current Local Weather: 

Ridiculous. Absolutely ridiculous. 

Currently on my iTunes: 

"Higher"

Creed

Currently Reading: 

"The Art of Happiness"

Dalai Lama

Dear Friends, Family and my Family of Friends, 

I heard a quote today. It hit me like a ton of bricks. And no, it's not the one above. The man on the travel show, while looking at the Alps said, "Immersion in Nature is man's consolation for having to face his own mortality." Earlier this morning and for a good portion of yesterday's afternoon, I was immersed in nature. Having recently faced my own mortality, and believe me this isn't a journey that is over...yet...I am beginning to see things differently. Finding ways of saying Thank you in less grand ways for my life and finding more in my life to be thankful for is what I got out of these "walks." As I wrote on FB the other day, to everyone that knows me, I am still in love with the world despite the shit that has happened. More specifically, I'm embracing the world much more as a lover would than a brother, sister or worse, a parent. I am not in control of the world, I am in awe. 

You know that feeling you get when you're in love. The first feelings of anxiousness, the wealth of energy the other man's/woman's smile gives you when you're near them or on your way to see them? The beauty of their touch and the giggles that only that ONE person can give you? That's where I'm at. And it feels amazing. As a matter of fact, it feels so good I'm in that glorious stage of denial that only this feeling brings into your life. 

Red flags, red schmags. 

Who cares. I don't care if this world has serial killers and fires that burn its surroundings to the ground. I do, but well, just not right now. It's about embracing the present. As I look outside the window to my left, I see cerulean skies, a neutral palate of winter starkness...with arms wide open, I embrace it. I soak in the sun. The unusual, although I'm not sure how unusual it is now, 60 degree temps in January are embracing me back. It's amazing how dim lighting, dark attitudes and deeply imbedded pain, both real and imagined, can cloud your soul and even more amazing how a crack of light can make months and months of hell find their way back underground. 

As Creed is singing in my ears right at this very moment, I have to ask you, what are you going to do this year? What are you going to do to rid your soul of the darkness you've been hiding in? Leave the comfort of your place. Put the tune on and sing along. 

Leave the comfort of this place...cause there's a hunger, longing to escape from the life to live when I'm away. Let's go there, let's make our escape, let's go there....Can you take me higher? To place where blind men see. Can you take me higher? To a place with golden streets?  I'd like to make the Earth and my dreams the same. Only difference is to let love replace all of our hate. 

I have to realize that this is a moment I might lose if I don't take it now and run with it. This is going to be better. Everything. Don't question. Run with it. Let's make our escape while we still have each other.  Don't question. Don't question.

Yours in Love, Lusting for the Beginning, Middle and End of Life and Living it Up,

Cicily